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Only about 45 mins left to go! Can't wait to get out of here. Amber, a co worker, just had an interview for a receptionist job today that agreed to paying her $14 an hour. That gives me great amounts of hope. I can't wait until November. I'll get married to a great guy.....I'll go on an awesome and wonderful honeymoon and get to do all types of fun things. And i'll get to quit my job and hopefully have one with better benifts, more pay and is closer to home! Yay! Last night was pretty gimp. We got to Shanes house at like 8pm and we walked through the door and everyone is sitting around with like 5 beers in front of them watching people play poker on TV. The excuses were fucking lame. No matter what both Chris and I were pretty irritated we had just wasted time and money (have you fucking seen gas prices!) Just to come over and find out there no D & D and get harassed for not wanting to get drunk on a teusday night. This game has been going on for 5 years and is set to end in December. Peoples lives are changing and it's probably for the best. Chris and I are getting married, J.P. is getting married in June, Keons wife is pregnant. Kate moved in with Shane.....which is seeming to be somewhat of the issue. So Chris and I just went home and he played computer games, I addressed invites until I wanted to stab my eyes out. Tonight I plan on relaxing. It's much needed.
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I'm so tired. Want to go home. Tired of stupid wedding planning. I wish it would just hurry up and be done with. I think Chris is going to plan the bachelor/bachelorette party. I think, as odd as this sounds, that were doing something together. Niethier one of us cares for strippers or have anything that we can't do in front of the other. So were thinking about having just one huge party. I don't know. We'll come up with something. I've told him I don't mind doing seperate things. All i'd do is probably go to the club or something. Hoping to go to electroshock this weekend since I won't have another opprotunity to until like the 3rd weekend in September hahaha. Same with Ren Fest. I'm SO not pressed about going during the hot ass first weekend but i'm going to because I won't have another opprotunity to go until mid september! :( I dread going to North Carolina :( I'm going to die if I get there and these kids are unruly. I only hope Chris' folks stick with the idea of getting a hotel.
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This weekend went by fast, as do all of them for some reason now. Friday Chris brought home some baja and we ate and played Gladius and just spent the night in. Saturday we went out to lunch with my dad and walked around the mall. It was nice to see him, I always feel so bad for him. He's paid taxes all his life and the goverment barely gives him anything. At his age and with cancer he has to worry about how long he can work a low paying job. This country is severly screwed up in how we prioritize need. After going out with my dad we went over to A.C Moore and I returned like $140.00 worth of wedding shit. I just changed my mind. Chris was laughing at me though, I took off my engagement ring and I had this whole sob story about how my wedding got cancelled so I needed to return everything. At least the guy I got was cool and well he SHOULD be. The reciept says as long as I have it, everything is returnable and nothing was unpackaged or used looking so I don't know why they give you a hard time. After that we came home and stuck around the house like the boring fools we are. But it was fun. Sunday we got up and went to church, and afterwards did our usual dunkin donuts. Came back to my house and changed and then went to Chris's uncle Richards house. Now the deal was we were orginally going to hang out with chris's folks sat and my dad sunday, but tuesday night Shane told us he and Kate were going to Richards on sunday, so we switched to seeing Chris's folks sunday, Chris said he talked to his mom and told her that we would be at Richards on sunday. Thursday in what seems to be the usual fashion of thinking that Chris and I don't work or have lives she calls him and tells him his uncle is here and he needs to set time up to visit. Chris explains to her much like last time she called out of the blue we were busy, maybe if she would of told us ahead of time, but that we were going to be at Richards sunday. So we get to Richards and no Shane and Kate and no Chris's rents. He calls them and gets his dad and his dad never knew we were going to be there and was in the middle of things that sounded like it would take him house. Long story short after 2 hours of froliking in the water with Chris his rents show up and his dad his happy and his mom is uber pissy. She is swearing up and down that Chris told her he'd hang out with his relatives and that he never said he'd be at richards....and then she gets into some argument about kids at the wedding..apparently she IS telling children that they are ok to come...and really thats an argument that Chris does need to have with her but not in front of me. I think that woman hates me, really I do. I stole Chris away, they had a live band playing, and they started playing Wild Horses so I made him slow dance with me and man...if looks could kill. Surprisngly his dad agrees with me, and told me I shouldn't even be ok with the younger ones. Oh yea cause the kids she told me were all 14 and up are more like 11.....12...13..gay. On a sidenote thank you Joy for talking to a pissed off person!!! So we hung around for a little bit longer than came home and showeered and went to see The Skeleton Key. The movie was AWESOME but we had to fucking go to muvico which SUCKED. We moved seats like 10 times all the while not finding any peace. Some 14 year old girl was talking on the cell phone behind us.....someone was flat out yelling stupid shit like "I'm horny!"It sucked. They calmed down a little after a while but it was so ridiculous. After the movie came home and got some snuggle action. Woooo!
So Chris went to the bank this morning and excerted all types of energy to find out what I told him. I mean, what the hell? Maybe one day he'll realize his dad gives great advice.....for someone who is responsible. But what I advise him to do is what is manageable for him. What i'll know he'll actually do. I think i'm leaving work a little early we were SO busy I couldn't take a regular lunch break. Blah. So i've been upset at someone. I don't really want to write about it and I don't want to get into it but it sucks when you think someone is a friend and you feel totally overlooked. Like, thanks.....thats fucking lovely. Great.
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ABOUT YOU
Your full name:: Nikki Lynn Jenkins
Age:: 24
Height:: 5'6 1/2
Natural hair colour:: Recently what you see is VERY close to my natural, maybe one shade darker.
Eye colour:: Brown
Number of siblings:: 3 1/2 sisters i have nothing to do with
Glasses/contacts?:: 20/20 vision
Piercings:: only 7 now and I rarely even wear my eyebrow ring
Tattoos:: 3
Braces?:: Never had them
FAVOURITE
Colour:: blue
Band:: Tool
Song:: I have a ton of them
Stuffed animal:: My stuffed Inuyasha Chris got me or the stuffed Chesire cat Erik got me, remember that Erik!?! I still cuddle that fucker!
Video game:: At the moment Gladius
TV show:: Whose wedding is it anyway.....it WAS carnivale..I can't believe they didn't pick that shit up for another season!
Movie:: God...theres a TON.
Book:: Laurell K Hamilton, the Anita Blake Vampire Hunter novels, Jim Butcher, The Dresden Files....Maryjanice Davidson, the Undead and Unwed series...Southern Vampire Novels by Charliane Harris. Women of the Underworld series by Kelly Armstrong, and last but not least all the dark elf Drizzt books by R.A. Salvatore and the War of the Spider Queen Series.
Food:: Shlobster
Game on a cell phone:: I don't play any games on my cell phone
CD cover:: None of my cd's are in thier cases :(
Flower:: Lily or rose
Scent:: Chris
Animal:: Kitties
Comic book:: Dawn, Lady Death, Evil Ernie
Cereal:: I like a lot of the healthy ones actually with sweet n low on it.
Website:: www.myspace.com, www.livejournal.com,www.fotki.com/devientdrow
Cartoon:: Family Guy, Samuri Champloo
DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: My vocal chords
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: I don't know...I don't think so....probably like 45 hours a week....but not always just sitting there watching. I will have it on while doing other things.
Like to sing?:: Yes
Have a job?:: Yes, one that I hate at Dunbar Armored
Have a cell phone?:: Yep
Like to play sports?:: Not really
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: I got me a fiancee
Have a crush on someone?:: Reference the above question
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: Nope
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: We have exactly 5 TV's. One in my rents room in the basement, one in thier sitting room in the basement, one in the living room, one in Chris's and I's sitting room and one in our bedroom.
Have any special talents/skills?:: Umm i've been told I can dance ok. I sing...if that counts. I write.
Excercise daily?:: Trying too stick to 4 times a week. 2 30 min treadmill work outs and 2 free weight lifting sessions on the yoga ball.
Like school?:: Certain classes.
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: Not at all
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: never tried
Speak any other languages?:: Nope
Go a day without food?:: I wouldn't ...i mean i'm sure I could if I was like stranded somewhere but seeing as though i'm not...I won't.
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: I have before
Read music, not just tabs?:: Yep and it ruined me
Roll your tongue?:: Yep but that seems so piddly when your fiancee can tie a knot in a cherry stem with his tongue
Eat a whole pizza?:: Nope
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Oh yeah
Cried to get out of trouble?:: HAHAHA MOST DEFINATLY, whats the fun in being a girl if you can't cry to get outta trouble here and there??!!??
Gotten lost in your city?:: Gotten lost in a FEW cities
Seen a shooting star?:: Yep
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: Not yet but I will...
Had a serious surgery?:: Not serious, just my tonsils.
Stolen something important to someone else?:: Nothing important
Solved a rubiks cube?:: I don't know...i don't think so...
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: Sure, why not!
Cried over a girl?:: No
Cried over a boy?:: Yep...still cry over a stupid boy
Kissed a random stranger?:: I kissed someone I had just met like literally just traded names with.
Hugged a random stranger?:: Yea
Been in a fist fight?:: Yes
Been arrested?:: Yep
Done drugs?:: Yep
Had alcohol?:: Again with the yep
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: Milk...soda....booze it's all been outta my nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: Once my cousin did in ocean city and broke it
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: Nope you memorize that shit!
Swore at your parents?:: Yes
Been to warped tour?:: yes, thats where i got pwned in eye by a water bottle!
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: Yep
Been in love?:: I am in love.
Been close to love?:: Yes
Been to a casino?:: No and honestly I don't care if I ever am...not my scene
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: Nope
Broken a bone?:: Nope
Gotten stitches?:: Nope, unless you count the dissolving sutres that go in your mouth after wisdom teeth...which I don't count those.
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: No
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: Nope
Made homemade muffins?:: I don't think so..never muffins.
Bitten someone?:: Yea
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: No...dammit. I'm deprived. My childhood was stolen.
More than 5 times?:: Asshat
Been to niagra falls?:: Nope, no urge to go there eithier..it's like "Wow. Water. Cool." alright now lets go home...
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Nope and I better not get it when i'm older eithier and could get the shingles!!!!
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: At 7:08am this morning
Saw a movie in theaters:: Last sunday Chris and I went and saw Wedding Crashers
Read a book:: I'm always reading a book.
Had a snow day:: When you grow up and work in the real world...theres never anymore snow days :(
Had a party:: The last party that I had was hmmmmmm my 21st bday party. Theres been so much goin on. I'm planning a pretty fuckin big one right now tho!
Had a slumber party:: If you count Lisa throwing up in my yard and me cuddling her in my sleep as a slumber party...then a few years ago?? hahaha
Tripped in front of someone:: Gah all the time, i'm clumsy
Went to the grocery store:: Ummmm wednesday after work to get stamps.
Got sick:: I'm always sick
Cursed:: This morning
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: Fruit
Black/white:: Black
Lights on/lights off:: On
TV/movie:: Movie
Car/truck:: Car
Body spray/lotion:: Lotion
Cash/check:: Cash
Pillows/blankets:: Blankets
Headache/stomach ache:: Headache
Paint/charcoal:: Paint
Chinese food/mexican food:: Oh dip! This ones hard....hmmm mexican food
Summer/winter:: Niether thank you...i'll take fall
Snow/rain:: Snow
Fog/misty:: Fog
Rock/rap:: Rock
Meat/vegetarian:: Meat
Chocolate/vanilla:: Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing:: Icing
Cake/pie:: Cake
French toast/french fries:: French Toast
Strawberries/blueberries:: Strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool:: Ocean
Hugs/kisses:: Kisses
Cookies/muffins:: Cookies
Wallet/pocket:: Wallet
Window/door:: Window
Emo/goth:: Goth
Pink/purple:: Pink
Cat/dog:: Cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: Short Sleeve
Pants/shorts:: Pants
Winter break/spring break:: Spring Break
Spring/autumn:: Autumn
Clouds/clear sky:: Clear
Moon/mars:: Mooon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?: Even if i only had one good one that would be plenty
What are their names?:: Geez i'm writing up a freaking list!
Do you have a best friend?: I have a few
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: Yep...Chris was my best friend for 2 years!
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: About equal now...
Have you ever lost a friend?:: Yes, they aren't dead though..
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: Yes
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: TASTEY WHEAT!
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: Yep
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: I think one of the nicest gestures I did was give Lisa a plane ticket for her present to go home. I guess that was nice of me. :)
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: Accept me, despite my faults and love me for who I am....Thanks people!
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: A lot
What friend have you known the longest?:: Chris and Tom, then Joy...oh yea and Carly since like kindergarten!
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: Yea
If so, what is it?:: Thats a story for another time...
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: Not nearly as much as I would like
Do any of your friends drive?:: Most
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: No
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: Drive drunk
What do you think your friends think of you?:: I hope good things!
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: I am in love
If you have, with who?:: Christopher Brian Murphy
Are you single?:: Nope
Are you in a relationship?:: Yep I am engaged
If so, for how long?:: Almost 2 years now...
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: yes
What is your idea of the best date?:: Any date where i'm with him....
What was your first kiss like?:: If your talking about Chris's and I's first kiss that would be when we were about 14......and then again when I was 22? Both times were amazing and incredible. If your talking about my first kiss ever it sucked.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: 12?
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: Not at all
Whats the best experience youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: Knowing that someone really truly loves me. I almost lost my faith in love when I saw how someone who says they "love" you could abandon you, even as a friend, in your worse time of need. It jaded me so much and made me think that it didn't exist. Looking back at that relationship, I don't think I ever felt securley loved. KNOWING that this person loves me....really loves me. It just exhilirating.
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: n/a
Have you ever been dumped?:: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?:: Yes
WORD ASSOCIATION - NAMES!
Slippers:: fluffy
Hat:: magic
Free:: yourself
Space:: shuttle
Good charlotte: suck
Special:: Ed
Ca-razy:: *i really am drawing a complete blank b/c i'm overwhelmed with thinking why anyone would type "ca-razy"!?!
Red:: blood
Deep:: ocean
Heart:: cold
Cord:: tie
Cheese:: Head
Rain:: Pours
Fluff:: Kitty
Hardcore:: Porn
Knife:: your face
Jump:: Up jump up and get down
am:: sam
want:: coffee
need:: coffee
love:: chris
hate:: work
did:: good
feel:: sad
miss:: myself
am annoyed by:: work!
would rather:: be home
am tired of:: so much stress
will always:: love my honey
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: metal/goth/industrial/synthpop
What time is it now?:: 10:12am
What day is it?:: friday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: Yesterday I called my dad after work
How much money do you have right now?:: Nothing on me, in my bank acct who knows
Are you hungry?:: A little
Whatcha doin?:: duh
Do you like parades?:: Thier alright
Do you like the moon?:: Yea i'm fond of it
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: Get coffee
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: Not really
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: Invisibility
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: Of course!
What about sock em boppers?:: No
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: Nope
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: I can be
pretty?:: I can be
sarcastic?:: Yes
lazy?:: Sometimes
hyper?:: Here and there but not usually
friendly?:: Yes
evil?:: No
smart?:: Yes
strong?:: Somewhat
talented?:: In my own way
dorky?:: Yeah
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: Against
love:: For
drunk drivers:: Against
airplanes: For
war:: For, but for the right reasons and the right terms....
canada:: For
united states:: For
rock music:: For
gay marriage:: For allowing civil ceremonies...they should have benfits such as a husband and wife would.
school:: For
surveys:: For, in moderation
parents:: For
cars:: For
killing:: Against
britney spears:: Against
coffee: For
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: Possibly
Play strip poker?:: Nope, unless it was just with chris
Run away?:: Been there...done that
Curse at a teacher?:: No
Not take a shower for a week?:: No
Ask someone out?:: I have before
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: No
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: I'd love to if I could
Go scuba diving?:: I will on my honeymoon!
Write a book?:: I'd like to
Become a rockstar?:: Sure if it was possible
Have casual sex?:: No
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: Panetene color whatever for brown hair
What kind of computer do you have?:: Dell
What grade are you in?:: None
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: Nope I like to eat the popcorn!
How many posters do you have in your room?:: None
How many cds do you have?:: A good amount
What time is it now?:: 10:19am
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Gah. If I wasn't getting married, yesterday I would have quit. You see I worked in the contracts dept, while over there a woman named Camilla quit who worked in the collections dept. She entered checks and put throught credit card, cash and wire payments. Baisically handeled all incoming monies. They decided they woudln't replace her, but instead have everyone in collections help out. That when I started entering checks to help out over here. You see our accounts are divided up by state and each collecter has certain account numbers/states that are "thier" accounts. They orinally brought me over to help with checks because people were so busy with the checks they werent getting to thier accounts. Then Becky, one of the collectors, left and they decided to ask me if I would take over her job UNTIL SHE WAS REPLACED. So i've been working her accounts. One of the ladies, Linda, is apparently a suck collector so they have been having her handle the money and all of us are helping her with her accounts. I heard the decided not replacing Camilla was wrong so they were going to not only hire someone to replace Becky but hire someone to take over Linda's accounts. So yesterday the big boss comes down and talks to Kim and Kathy. I overheard them talking, Becky is coming back. So Tom, the boss, never said one word to me. So later on Kim comes over and tells me that Becky is coming back so she'll take over her desk again and her accounts, and i'll be moving to the next desk over and taking over Linda's accounts. First off, Tom never said ONE FUCKING WORD to me. I think thats pretty fucking rude. I'm supposed to be doing you a favor. The agreement was to work over here UNTIL BECKY WAS REPLACED so now she is coming back, and he just assumes i'll take over someone else's shit, without even asking? What the fuck? Is this like slave bartor? Am I now in fucking indentured servitude? Secondly, it sucks, i feel like i've been over here for no reason. I spend 40 hours a week in this damn cube and it had finally gotten to be more like mine, broken in, and now i'll just be moving over to a whole new cube. Lastly, Linda's accounts are FUCKED!Now i'm the complete fuckin newb over here so why would they give the hardest shit to me?? Wouldn't it make sense to have me do something easier?? I'm so fucking done with this place. I can't wait till after the wedding/honeymoon so I can tell these asshats to fuck off. I hope I can find another job, I won't quit without having another one lined up. It's just bogus, everyfucking day, for instance this morning. Soon as I come in I have some lady, not my account but Kim is entering checks so i'm trying to be nice and help out, and this lady is yelling at me and bitching at me about how she should be credited for something. I ask Kim what to do and as per usual with her i'm so fucking tough attitude she tells me in her 'don't take any shit' manner to ask the woman to tell me what days our service failed to show. So I tell the lady that we will be happy to credit her for any missed pick ups and any excess charges that were a result of those missed pick ups. EXACTLY what Kim told me to tell her. I tell her I need the dates and she could send something to me or tell me them over the phone. She starts out ok and then starts flipping out about how she shouldn't HAVE to do research and starts flipping out. So I tell Kim and Kim acting exasperated tells me to transfer it...so all of a sudden she's on the phone being all ass kissey "Oh I agree with you, 100%, were definatly wrong...you shouldn't have to do research..." then I hear her say something about my being new and I just wanted to say FUCK YOU. I mean I did what she told me to do to the "T", I was polite AND I told her the woman was very upset already so don't get on the phone and act like it was all me.
So yesterday I realized that we are about $3,000 short of paying for our wedding. Nice huh? Thats upsetting. This fucking overhills is more pricier than I thought and it pisses me off that I can't have candles. Suck.
Last night my honey and I just sat around and watch our dancing show and Over There. It's nice to just have a night to relax together and snuggle.
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I have noticed that there are certain people in this world who are so totally phony it baffles me. They are the total enbodiment of everything they say they stand against. They truly do believe they are walking through this world embracing the beliefs they hold dear, thinking it's everyone else that has the problem, not them. So one of these people, I never really think about. Ever. Like unless someone brings them up, they honestly don't cross my mind AT ALL. So someone wrote something about them and it was funny, no scratch that, fucking hilarious and I read about it and responded. Now, only one day later, I can see that said hypocrite has already posted a response. Now it's obvious that this person must spend sooooo much energy, effort and time scouring the thoughts and lives of people who aren't even friends to see if there is any small mention of them. How pathetic is that? Geeeez. Glad that's not me.
Stayed home from work today! Yay! Wanted Chris to stay home too but he's such a goody goody :) So i'm going to meet him for lunch, take a spin around the mall, come home and work out, then go over to Lori's house to talk about wedding stuff and have her try on her shoes! Yay!
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This past weekend was alright. Friday when I got home Chris and I played Gladius all night. See, he got all pissy with me when I wanted him to get the game back from his cousin, but thats because he forgot it's awesomeness. So we played all night and I think he was highly amused by the role reversal. As in him being like "I'm tired..." and me being like "Ok, just one more." hehehe.
Saturday we went to get a wedding cake at Fishers. They were very reasonably priced and it was an overall one of the most painless parts of the wedding planning i've had to deal with. After that I took all my jewels (all my nice jewelry has the protection plan on it, but it sucks, you have to take it every 6 months to get it cleaned and inspected and it's dumb) so we went to Columbia Mall. Chris had never been there. We walked around and on our way home I took him to the lake front since it was somewhere else he'd never seen before. Spent the rest of the evening at home, lounging and watching TV and playing Gladius.
Sunday was my company picnic, I decided not to go to it because I hadn't been feeling good all week and weekend (when i went for the shot in my back my back wasn't even hurting, since the shot I have been in a lot of pain and it's really wearing me thin.) and it looked like it was going to rain. I just didn't feel like driving out to hunt valley to see work people on a sunday. So I decided I would be nice and we would go to Darkon. I like Darkon. I was going to Darkon BEFORE I got hooked up with Chris. We thought it would be something nice to go do as a couple and get involved in again, and we did. Since my back problems have increased i've been wary of fighting. Ever since a couple months ago when we were doing a woods battle and some fucking idiot decided to jump out and rush us while we were on a steep ass slippery hill. Chris's leg got wrapped around mine and I got twisted between him and a tree and feel at a really akward angle and we trapped there not able to get up. Chris had to do like 80 mph home with me crying in the passenger seat everytime I moved. Weight lifting using my medicine ball and using the treadmill is not running, being hit and falling. That can be very hard on my back and i've been scared since then, maybe venturing out once an event or so. So anyway we get to Darkon and I set up and within like 5 mins i'm already being ignored by Chris. Then I had to sit there and listen to stupid girls talk about spending $100's of dollars on a corset to make thier boobies look smaller. Yeah. Right. Darkon and women is all about trying to get attention. Gay. I just found it irritating and I was bored, I had no one to talk too. So I thought i'd leave. I went back to the car and took off my stuff and came back down to tell Chris I was leaving and he wanted to walk me to the car. He asked why I was leaving and I told him I was bored and he got all pissy and we got in a dumb argument. Which ended in both of us leaving at 2:30pm. We came home, played some Gladius and then went to the movies to see Wedding Crashers. It was pretty good. Owen Wilson and Vince Vaugn are getting old though, especially Owen Wilson. His skin looked all leathery...ick!
Tried callin the doc today and left a message on why AFTER the procedure that was SUPPOSED to help me I feel worse. I hope they get back to me soon, not that I think they can do anything but I hate sitting here at work or sitting at home complaining about the pain. I know people get sick of me, or think i'm being dramatic about it. It's so impeding though. Last week I had such a good start on sticking with the work out plan I wanted to adhere to but at the end of the week the pain was so bad I just couldn't take it. Sucky.
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I was thinking about how my last post might of sounded. I don't want anyone to think i'm not grateful for Chris. He came into my life at the worse possible time ANYONE could of. The man that I had been with for almost two years abandoned me in my time of need, yet someone who barely knew who I was stayed put and trudged through with me. He has made immense changes for me, he makes me feel more loved and accepted then anyone else ever has in my entire life. I'm grateful to of found someone in this world that when I come home from work I can fall into thier arms and bitch about my day and listen while they bitch about thiers and kiss and hug and then voila, it's all better. A friend to always be there to share my joys or sorrows, a comrade in arms against every obstacle to know that thier right beside me through anything. For this, I should spending every second of my life on my knees praising every power or being in this universe that could of given something so precious. Yet, like the stupid human that I am, I am never satisfied. I can only think of better. But I don't think my feelings are as selfish in root as I thought they were. Yes, I am jealous of those girls who have a ready made life, but it's not as if I need Chris to make something for me. I have no problem making that kind of life for myself, the frustration comes because I don't know how. And I know he doesn't eithier. I want it to be better not just for me, but for us. I don't want to become embittered and unhappy because of worry and frustration. Life is too short.
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[03 Aug 2005|09:32am] |
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So Joe sent me this email of like how to bypass surf control. First off it read like fucking japanese to me. I mean, I can work my way around a computer but i'm no fucking hAx0r or anything like that, and it's all about ocets and code and yadda...but I really came into work, ignored my work and applied myself to the article. Lo and behold I put in my new and improved distored IP addy and myspace pops up! I swear it was like the movies....I got all giddy and somewhere off in the distance I could hear bells ringing and that "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh" like in movies, where a chorus of angels sing out as the light shines down upon....the myspace. A huge grin plastered on my face I type in my name and password and then bam...blocked again by the stupid surf control. What the fuck. So I have a few more IP's i'm gonna try and do the thingy too and MAYBE just maybe.....it will work. For a second there Joe I was going to ask you to marry me and profess my love for you forever...pssssh. Nah...thank you ever so much for the article and I am ever in your debt.....if you need a good egger you know who to call. Hopefully I can get it to work, I won't be a jerk this time and leave it up all day, i'll duck in and duck out. Be a ninja. Last night at D & D this guy Dan told me that myspace actually does take up a lot of bandwith. He was talking about the profiles that have like backrounds and music and lots and lost of pics...not my busted ass profile. I don't even know how to make a cool one. I was lucky I got the skulls on there!
D & D was ok last night. I'm glad J.P's game is ending though, sometimes it can be sooo stagnant. This group, with the exception of Dan and I, have been playing for like 7 years together and they like to sit around and be like "Uh yea remember that time THIS happened" and i'm like "Umm no cause I wasn't there asshat and i'm not going to be uber impressed because your gay ass made up character did something funny 4 years ago. Do something funny NOW." Or they sit around and overly discuss ANY point of action. Just DO something and it will be fun! I swear! I thought we'd get out early since it was a "passage of time" event where baiscally we each had to go in and talk about what happened during the 5 year passage of time. My char became a weapons master, her husband got ressurected (Chris's char), and she had a baby girl. Pretty productive i'd say.
I'm tired of feeling like crap. This new medicine causes way more problems than it helps. My stomach is seriously fucked up all the time, which makes me feel gross and impedes the working out i'm SUPPOSED to be doing. Maybe i'll do kung fu again. As if I don't have enough crap to do. I wanted to go to a theme park, either six flags or hershey park because I haven't been to one in FOREVER and I realized that the next available time I have for that would be like the second weekend in September...no time until then!!! Doesn't that suck?? Speaking of weekend I still haven't decided if we will go to Darkon or my company picnic. On one hand the picnic sounds fun...free crabs and they kareoke and you can drink and all that good stuff but on the other hand it's driving all the way out to hunt valley and seeing work people, on a freaking sunday. So I don't know. Last night while we were at Shanes you can really see how the house belongs to a couple now then just a few guys living in a town house. Kate has really put the house through a lot of pretty changes. It makes me sad though, it's like the thing with Dave's girlfriend. I mean does Kate even work? No! They live in an awesome townhouse right in Towson because Shanes mom owns the place and rents it out cheap to them. I don't even know if she pays ANYTHING! So yea it must be really fun to go out and raid ikea and play house when you don't have to worry about busting your ass at a job to pay for the bills. Yea, you could say i'm jealous. I tend to fall into relationships with people who don't have thier shit together. Dave, was only 16, so no one expected him to have anything together but he's done so very well for himself. At the time I was with Steve he couldn't even keep a food service job, now he's doing wonderful. I don't know about Mike. He wasn't terrible about being immature but he didn't have much motivation beyond, I want to be a rock star. Apparently he's going into the military and hopefully that will give him the means to have a decent life with his girlfriend. Chris........my love sure has come a long way. Possibly THE most immature person i've dated since Steve. He has made a lot of changes to try and make life better for us, but sometimes as terrible as this may sound I find myself thinking. 'Why couldn't I of fallen in love with someone who has thier shit together?" With someone who can take care of me, while I concentrate on myself. I don't want to live the life my mother does, where she does practically everything for our family except wipe my step dad's ass. I don't want to be like that, and Chris does try, I know. I just wish I didn't have to worry about our future so much. I honestly can't express how much of a burden would be realased from my shoulders if I were in a situation like Daves' Rachel or Shanes' Kate.
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My weekend was annoying and boring. I felt like crap for most of it, still do. I was having some some strange yet completly normal reaction to the steroid shot. Thursday people came over to play D & D. I was being pissy at the end of the night because of my back but looking back now it was alright. Playing with all loud boys sucks sometimes. Dammit why can't more cool girls be nerds!?! Friday I was really pissed off at work. It was end of month and seeing as though i've been busting my ass in a completly different job position I haven't had to stay the past two months. So naturally I assume I wouldn't have to be staying this month and I had already told Davds Bridal I was going to come out there to straighten out my gown issues after work. So I come into work with a frantic Kim running around exclaiming "We got hit."as per usual anytime we get over like 5 checks. Get over it. It's not that bad. It's fucking work, and i'm sick of walking in and working in a frentic atmosphere where I feel like I can't leave my seat for coffee or breakfast until 2pm. So i'm in the middle of being "hit" and the big boss comes down and informs me that Tricia will be needing me in the afternoon. That really pissed me off. I haven't been keying so it's not like i'm going to go over there and produce the type of work I used to, but I was pissed because I had something to do after work and I had JUST seen my boss the day before and she said NOTHING about needing my help end of month. So my boss comes over IN THE MORNING and tried to get me to just up and move over to my old dept. Things worked out, I stayed in collections all day and didn't have to stay over. My boss saw that someone in her dept was talking on the phone and playing on the net and decided to make them work. How novel an idea. I got home friday night, stiff and beat and still managed to transport a bridal dress, slip, bra and a mom to Davids. Once there everything got taken care of and worked out quite well. I will however say that I am truly 100% sick of going to Davids Bridal. I came back home and hung out with my honey all night and just relaxed while feeling progressivly worse and crazy. Think when your really sick and delirious and you for some unknown reason think that your going to die. Thats always fun.
Saturday I took my leisurley (like that spelling?) good time and attempted to go out purchase clothing for the honeymoon. I have realized two things. One, I waited waaaaaaay too long to try and find swim wear and summer clothes and two, what the FUCK was I thinking going to an island on my honeymoon?? I'm a fucking fat ass!!! I haven't felt this unattractive and self loathing in YEARS as I have this past weekend of trying to find clothing and trying on bathing suits (with my undergarments on of course!) I truly do feel absolutly disgusting. We scoured all of marley station and really it was sooo very dissapointing. Later that night we went to see Mr. and Mrs. Smith and it was actually really cute. Now theres only Wedding Crashers and The Island left to go see.....
Sunday I COMPLETLY fucked up in setting the alarm and we slept too late to go to church. I really could of blugeoned myself for that. We haven't been to church for FOR EV ER and it really seriously irritated me that I messed this up. Maybe next sunday no matter if we do Darkon or my company picnic we'll try and get our asses in gear and go to church. Chris actually stayed in bed and hung out with me watching stupid shows on Mtv and Vh1 with me until like 12:30pm. That was nice. Then we went back out to brave the summer clothing at Khols and Target. Also picked up my oh so comfy new belly ring at star rocket. Then the day started to suck. Chris and I got in this big argument. Ok so this is the deal, we both play this little game called Darkon. Emphasis on GAME. It is a medieval padded weapon role playing fighting GAME. It is meant for you to come out and HAVE FUN. I got into Darkon when I was running the street being a hooligan with Chris Elmore, he invited my friend Jess and I to a camp out and after that we kept up for a while with playing the game, making weapons and even going to practises at CCBC. I found out that my x, Dave Scheel (Tyko), played and it spurred us to be friends again. I continued playing up until I meant and started dating Mike, since there were boys at Darkon and since he was a jealous fuck....well that wasn't happening. So I stopped playing Darkon, never to return until Mike and I broke up and then I went back out. At this time the country I had been fighting with was no longer around but my X Dave had started a country called Dark Legion, that I hooked up with. When I ran back into Chris and we were hanging out everyday being giddy and catching up our 6 year seperation I found out that he had went out to Darkon and met Dave a few years back. So we decided since this is something we both liked to do that it would be a fun thing to do as a couple. So we went back out. I noticed that Dave was no longer out and about and Dark Legion had gone defunct. So we fought as nomands for awhile, hoping to fall in with another country. We met Daemon, Vash, and he invited us to join nurgle. We were both quite pleased at that considering we both thought that they were good fighters and they seemed cool. So at this time my friend Dave also starts calling me crying about his relationship. I'll be right out about it, I'm not particularly overly fond of his girlfriend *Begin Side Tangent* I don't understand this girl. I have bent over backwards went above and beyond to be nice to her yet she continues to not like or be cold to be because Dave and I dated.....WHEN WE WERE 15!!! Get over it!!!I'm getting MARRIED!! Are you crazy?? Do you think i'm going to try and take your man?? Secondly she says she has a problem with my drug addiction. This is COMPLETLY ridiculous to me seeing as though the drug addiction was IN THE PAST, when she spends every weekend, dare I say everyday gettin CRUNK....how can someone who smokes pot like daily argue they wouldn't like someone because they HAD a drug addiction? Not to mention Dave is SOOO not little mister innocent when it comes to drugs. I also know how much Dave has done for this much younger woman, and i've seen her claim it all as if she put any effort towards it. She has no idea how lucky she is. Dave makes beacoup bucks. He has his own home, a very nice home in which she lives. He hooked her up with a job. She has a ready made life. All she has to do is love him, and she won't EVER have to worry about trying to get a home...a car. Anything. I hate when someone has such a sweet set up like that and doesn't seem to realize how lucky they are. *END SIDE TANGENT* So considering Dave was mighty stressed I suggested that he come back out to Darkon. Since he decided to come back out and since Chris and I didn't realize that Nurgle does indeed come out, just a little later than everyone else, we ended up hooking up with Ched Nasad instead. So it's been very very cool. I like most of the people in the country and they have all been very nice and sweet to us. Then hoardlings came about. A whole mess of younger people who just irritate me to NO END. Especially the girls. Oh Lord strike me dead at the sound of the screetchy voice emanating from thier black lip sticked lips......gaaaaaaah. So anyway we found out Ched was having practices every thursday. Since we were playing D & D every other thursday and planetside had raids on thursdays Chris was quite content not to go. So much like my a hole boy, Dave who wasn't coming out to Darkon AT ALL, is obsessive and has to come out to EVERY EVENT and practise TWICE a fucking week. Since i'm babbling,in short here Dave was supposed to be having a practise/weapons making with the "older" members of the country. No newbs. I came prepared to chill. I had my little chair...some boston market....magazine..book..cell phone but I was very much happy and content and social with the few people that were huddled in Daves gargage. Then THEY arrived. Squeaky and flailing and hugging and chatting on and on about who got raped at freaking Darkon it was THE NEWBS. I looked at Chris and he looked at me and I know he was just as irritated as me that they had shown up. So whereas I see that i'm waaaay too old to HAVE to deal with asshats, I wanted to leave. Chris, who makes fun of these people every time we see them, wanted to stay. To build his weapon. I tried talking to him VERY NICELY about what could be done about the situation and he was a total cock to me for no good reason so I went off and did my own thing for an hour and a half then came back and picked him up. I hate when we argue. When it's all over and done with Chris will look at me and say "hey look i'm sorry I could of handled that differently, I was mad, not at you but that Dave said it wouldn't be like this." But that apology doesn't come until after a whole torrent of hurtful things. He claims those things are nothing, just things to say to hurt me but each thing burrows under my skin and bothers me to no end. I feel like crap today. I want to leave work sooo badly. I think after work i'm going to wal mart to get some hair dye ect and stop past burlington. I feel disconnected today.
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Starting to freak....starting to freak. Don't want to get the needle in my back :( God I hate this. I know it's going to hurt and I know it's going to feel icky and wierd me out. I H A T E F U C K I N G needles. I hate them. I hate just sitting here knowing whats coming. I have to leave soon too :(
So this other lady here needed to look at something online for kids baseball team and found that she was blocked and got pissed and went to go ask why mypsace...fotki...ebay and other previously unblocked sites were now blocked and they gave her some crap about how many users we have and saving money by cutting bandwith. So they were trying to cut photos and those sites were heavy on the photos. GAY FUCKING GAY FUCKING ASSHAT MOTHERFUCKS.....YOU SUCK DUNBAR. They already fucking cut streaming so no more DC101. The ONLY thing that kept me fucking sane was being able to chit chat on myspace and now thats gone too. I'm staying here until I go on my honeymoon because a lot of places don't give you vacation right off the bat and I need a week for my honeymoon but I swear after that...fuck this place. Anyone know any job prospects???
So I went to Davids last night. I picked up my mom and we went down there right after work. The dude that I can't stand was working. Now to explain....when I went to Davids the very first time I got a wedding dress. The woman who was helping me had in a 34B bra thingie and I tried on the dress in my size and it fit. VERY snugly but it fit. It is also a corseted top with boning so it's meant to be fitted. The only thing that didn't fit was the top. I have no boobs. So that could be altered. She urged me to try it on the next size up. I did, and it fit okay but it was HUGE in the top. She kept urging me to order it in that size and have it altered, stating that I wanted to be able to eat and sit and be comfy (obviously this woman has no idea of my history with corsets :) So I purchased it the next size up and she also urged me to purchase an A cup bra. She said it would create more cleavage so I got a 34 A bra. I've been trying to watch what I eat a bit more and work out. According to the person who see's me naked i've lost a little weight. Not much but a little. So I got the urge to try my dress on at home. I was going to wait until I went to my fitting but I got curious. I could NOT get the bra snapped into place AT ALL. It was like a 1/2 inch shy of closing. The dress looked horrendous. It was GIGANTIC up top and through the waist it did NOTHING for me. It hung on me and looked atrocious. I got paniky and thought, I don't like my wedding dress anymore! So I told my mom I was going to go to Davids and look at new ones and look at mine in the smaller size. So I got there and I grabbed my dress in the smaller size and another that I was interested in. The guy was giving me attitude and telling me I needed to check in with the people in the front( which if he would of looked he could cleary see was deserted) Don't get me wrong, I wasn't going to let someoone hook me up with the bra, slip, veil ect. I mean I'd rather those efforts go to someone who isn't already sold on the store. But he didn't have to be rude and he could of been somewhat more accomodating. When he saw I had another style dress with me as well he started going on about how I should ask the manager about it ect ect, so I didn't even bring that one in with me. He just kinda shoved me in this little room. I couldn't reach to zip the dress and luckily my mom had wandered over to wear the dressing rooms were, because that dude was nowhere to be found and his asshole self was to make sure I was zippered. So it zipped right up and to me it looked like a whole different dress. The one that I loved on me. Sure it was tight but it's supposed to be, and I wasn't like feeling crushed or breathing shallow. I could sit just fine in it. So there was a woman there who I had overheard before and I knew she always told people how it was and her true opinion so I asked her about the dress and she was like ....no this dress fits you perfect, I have no idea why she would put you in a size up. She also mentioned that all the dresses there can be let out 3/4's of an inch in case of a small wieght gain. Something Jaqueline, who scares me everytime I go in there because she smiles so big I think her face will crack, failed to mention to me. I told her about the bra situation and she also rolled her eyes and what she said made sense. Baisically since in an a cup the cup itself is actually smaller, even though it's a 34 it makes it a teeny bit smaller all the way around. So I do in fact need the B cup. I felt so relieved and much better when I looked in the mirror and saw that it was beautiful on me. The lady said something that made sense, no matter what I watch on TV or see in magazines I picked that dress out for a reason. She said it's like when girls go into jewelry stores and look at bigger diamonds or more sparkly ones...you have the one you have for a reason. Your done, be happy about it. So I shall.......Friday I take the dress and bra back and exchange them for the right sizes!!
Crap....off to get the fucking needle in my spine....fuck fuck fuck
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[27 Jul 2005|03:16pm] |
Apparently This is What D & D char I am, and it's what I never ever play!
I Am A: Lawful Good Elf Bard Fighter
Alignment:
Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.
Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.
Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.
Secondary Class:
Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn't to say that they aren't intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer.
Deity:
Oghma is the Neutral Good god of knowledge and invention. He is also known as the Binder of What is Known, and is the Patron of Bards. His followers believe that knowledge reigns supreme, and is the basis for everything else that is done. They wear white shirts and pants, with a black and gold braided vest, and a small, box-like hat. All priests of Oghma are known as Loremasters. Oghma's symbol is a scroll.
Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy of NeppyMan (e-mail)
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Fucking work blocked aim.com, Fotki.com and now fucking myspace. I hate this fucking place. Like really when i'm working my ass off in a dept i'm NOT trained in as a favor, if I want to check my myspace here and there I don't see the big fucking deal. Asshats. I'm so pissed off right now. Damn shit.
I also updated my photo page... www.fotki.com i'm devientdrow on there. Now if only I could view them....
Fucking MIS losers, pieces of shit...hacker wannabe fucking corporate asshats.
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God I don't want to be at work. When I miss a day here or have to take time entering checks people get all fucking frantic. Where are you?? Why aren't you answering my question...NOW. Fuckers. Not as if I didn't get plenty of rest over the weekend. Chris wasn't feeling too good, niethier was I. I was having some wierd tummy issues but he didn't know what he problem was until today, he realized he's got a staph infection. Thats why my baby's home relaxin. Wish I could go home and relax :( Wednesday we met up with Pastor Martin and he pretty much told us the deal about how our wedding service is going to run. It was nice and short! The meeting that is. Thursday people bitched out of D & D as per usual and I made Chris watch Titanic. Hahaha. He's boycotted that movie since it came out and I actually got him to watch it. It was great. He had to admit that it wasn't that bad. Not even HALF as mushy as The Notebook. Friday we were supposed to take out Chris cousin but his mom called and said that she was indeed staying another week. I love how no one tells us anything and then switches everything up. All....the.....fucking.....time. So we stayed home and watched the last Into The West and some Constantine. Saturday we went to go get pics taken at JC Penny. They came out much better than I anticipated. I can't wait until we get them back! Then we stayed in. Watched Legend. I was moody and crabby. On one hand I felt sick to my tummy and bloated and disgusting but on the other I was sooo fucking bored.So sunday rolls around, and my tummy hurt even worse so we decided not to go to church and Chris said he didn't feel to great and didn't want to go to Dave's. I figured we would do SOMETHING though, but I couldn't get Chris motivated so I moped and whined until Kate called and mentioned Sonar. So Chris and I went out there for a little while. It was nice to go out and socialize and all but I still like electroschock much better though. Better music, and also I can drink and stay out as long as I freakin want. Yesterday I had my last vaccination shot and my stomach was sooo fucked up I stayed home from work. When I felt a little better my mom and I went out and I did some shopping for some honeymoon clothes. It was nice to just spend that little bit of time with her. By the time Chris came come my stomach hurt again from trying not to eat (I had been so sick all day that I ended with NOTHING in my stomach and I didn't want to eat and ruin my appetite for going out) plus this shot had also made me feel a little sick, flu like. And tired. Sooo very tired. So Chris gets home and we were supposed to meet up with his sister and cousin at 7:20 at Jillians. We get there and Chris calls her and she's going through the tunnel. She didn't get there until like 8:15. It was fucking ridiculous. I flipped the fuck out and for once Chris didn't get defensive just cause it's his sister. I was soo hungry and this happens ALL THE TIME. This is the FOURTH time we've made plans with his family and they say a certain time and run late as shit, and of course they don't call to give us a heads up. They just let us get there early and hang around for half hour to an hour of wherever we are. His dad's birthday/Cirque Do Soliel/His mom's bday...and then this. Chris's cousin was cute but really young for her age. His mom lied about how she was and how old some of the other children are. Chelsea was only 13 and she looks about 11. This should be fun for the wedding. After we ate, we played around the arcade for a little bit and got kicked out around 10pm. Got Jen to get her dress and she tried on her shoes, that thankfully she liked and they fit.
This sounds wierd, but I don't know if I like my wedding dress anymore :(
So it seems a lot of old friends keep coming in and out and my conversations. In talking to Jessica, she talks to Dan Hensley. I've asked her to pass my number on a few times or give me his but that hasn't happened. I don't know why, but I miss him and would love to catch up with him. Sunday night people mentioned Elmore was back in town. They said he looked really good and seemed happy, which is good to hear. He was lookin like shit and being miserable here for a while. I wish I knew where he could be reached at, to get come coffee and catch up or something. I hope if he's back for good that he stays doing well.
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I'm not even tired. I want to bitch that i'm tired but I think i'm just terribly bored. Work sucks. The weekend is waaaaaay too short. It was an alright weekend though. Friday night Joy came over and she tried on her dress and shoes which to my surprise fit. It looked like it needed to be altered a little but I think that the next size down would of been too small. Chris's relatives ended up not coming in that night so we stayed in and watched some Into The West. Saturday I got up and bickered with Chris. We have been bickering a lot lately, getting into stupid arguments where he fuckin has retard rage. It's ridiculous. You'd think by the way we were acting that we had some serious issue or something, in of which...we don't. This seems to of been better lately though seeing as though we haven't bickered since saturday....so thats a good thing. So I got up and worked out and showered and then we were off to Towson Town center. We walked around for a while and then when by Chris's house to pick up Dan for some Midori. The plan was to try and spend as little time as possible at his house, cause we know his relatives were getting in and his sister had already tried to guilt trip him about not hanging out saturday night with them. The only thing keeping him from being guilted into it was knowing that next sat (now this sat) we were going to spend all day with his cousin and take her to do whatever she wanted to. So we picked up Dan and went to eat some yummy yummy sushi. We went past Chris's house before bowling again and that is when I wanted to knife myself. I was under the impression from talking to mrs murphy at her birthday that this girls parents would A. Be back to pick her up and we could possibly see them then and B. That she was staying for AT LEAST one week, if not two. And we also told her EXTENSIVLY that we were going to take her out next weekend because we were so busy during the week. I now find out that not only is she taking the girl home herself, but now she is leaving friday. What the fuck??? So no one was going to tell us this??? No one even really told us about her little get together saturday, we wouldn't of known if Chris hadn't talked to Jen. People what the fuck?? You NEED to tell us. But no...she'll sit around and expect us to just have nothing to do but to be at her beck and call. She'll expect us to just roll up out of nowhere and spend time, and be upset when we don't. GAH!! Gay. So we went bowling with Dan,Wes,Tom,Chris Guerrero,Brian,and Verch. It was really fun actually. I suck at bowling 10 pin though :( I like throw the ball like i'm throwing a freakin discus or something. Afterwards we went to Electroshock which was ok. Kate and Jamie didn't show until later and by that time I was close to being ready to leave....Chris got groped.....twice and was not too happy about it. I am extremly impressed that he only grabbed the second persons throat.....and didn't whoop some ass. He told me that he knew I liked the place and didn't want to kicked out. I told him if someone grabbed my crotch some faces would be getting bashed, so not too worry about it. Went home......
Sunday we were somewhat hung over. We didn't go to church or to Dave's. We both played respective video games and then went to go see The Fantastic Four. It was great! Spent the rest of the night snuggling/video gaming together. Yesterday was alright. I had a migraine from sunday night all through yesterday. That sucked. I knew Chris was irritated because apparently his cousin is going home friday, wednesday and thursday we have shit to do, so that leaves monday and teusday in which tonight apparently his sister is taking her to see the Lion King. Sooooo that left last night in which niethier one of us wanted to go out to towson and put on a happy non tired face. So we played the new fantastic four game and it was fun :) And we had a GREAT night together ......I love him.
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NiN tix go on sale tommorow and I think i'm gonna go for it. Both Chris and I have been HUGE NiN fans since we were like 14 and I don't think Chris has ever even gotten to see them. I've seen them twice, once with Tool which blew my young ass mind away. My step dad took Tom and me and Lisa Hensley came along with us. I remember being SOO excited. I was such a dork, I had never seen real "freaks" before and it was like Christmas day. I was so excited, NiN was great.....I believe Bowie was with them. And Tool was fucking perfect. It was probably one of the best overall shows I have ever been too. That and Depeche Mode with Stabbing Westward. The second time I saw them with A Perfect Circle at Merriweather. Also with my step dad(what can I say he's a NiN fan too!) and Steve. I actually knew a lot of people at this show but it wasn't as good. People were more subdued for some reason, I think my step dad was rockin out more than anyone else there! A Perfect Circle was great, thier sound was a little fucked but it was good. So along with people not really getting into it, I was also getting eaten up by mosquitos(thats what I get for wearing a stupid shirt with no back) and pouty because Maynard came into Columbia Mall but avoided Hot Topic thinking he would get hassled. He instead chose to go to this other store that for the life of me I can't remember the name and the chick I knew who worked there got to have lunch with him and get back stage passes. WTF??? That could've been meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Oh yea I was pouty :) So this NiN show at the MCI is a little pricey and it is on a weeknight, but I checked and the doors open pretty early so I think it will be fun. Chris also really likes that Queens of the Stone Age band so I think he'll have a good time. This is funny, Chris NEVER goes to shows hehe. I haven't really heard much of the new album. I don't particularly like the Hand That Feeds, and i'm hoping the rest is good and they play a lot of old stuff. I hope it won't be another Tool expierience. So anyone else planning on going???
I think they were playing a repeat this morning on Elliott In the Morning and they were reading transcripts of the BTK killer and it was so fucking scary. How this guy just stalked this women so easily and killed people and masturbated and stuff all in like 15 mins. All the women sounded so defeated. I guess they thought they would just get raped and then he would leave. Guess they didn't know helping him out with his "sexual problem" would involve being strangled. This guy was like joe average too! He had a family, he worked for animal control, and was active in church. He always said he was "putting people down" instead of killing them. Listening to the transcripts was so chilling because you realize these women didn't do anything particularly stupid or dangerous. No precaution really could of helped. Makes me wish I would of stayed in Kung Fu so if I come home and some crazy man is sitting in my kitchen telling me he needs me to help him with his sexual problem, and flashin his gun then I could kung fu him and disarm him and shoot him in the fucking crotch and then again in the face.....just for good measure.
I booked my honeymoon last night. Or at least tried too. Everything said it was straight but then it said there was an issue on the flight and to call in the morning. I have yet to call, there were a few other flight options so if that was a problem thats not TOO bad. I still don't understand why everything in my life has to have an "issue" though. Nothing is real nice or easy. So I don't relish the idea of going to an island and wearing a bathing suit but it really is the cheapest place to go. We had a hard time choosing between Sandals Montego Bay and Sandals Royal Caribbean. The Royal Caribbean had this neat little japanese style private island, but in the end we chose Montego Bay. We liked what the room had in it and they had more activities to do. The cool thing there is that you can go visit the other resorts when you stay at the one so I want to check out the island one day. So we went about $600 over budget but both Chris and I can cover that no problem. We also checked when hurricane season is which is techinically I think from June till November 30th. with August being peak time. So lets keep our fingers crossed that by mid November it'll be ok. So Chris and I will leave Nov 13th the day after our wedding at 8:55AM and get to the resort at 2:14PM. Once there were staying in the Waters Edge Honeymoon Penthouse Concierge Room. It'll be ocean view, top floor, with immense balconies,four poster mahogany beds, private whirlpool bath,concierge service,sitting area,a/c,amenity kit,hair dryer,telephone,stocked in room bar,in room safe,cd/clock radio,satellite TV,Iron & Ironing board,plush his & hers bathrobes and private bath & shower. The resort itself has a lot to do like canoes,kayaks,sail boats,snorkeling,windsurfing,hydrobikes,scuba diving,water skiing,kneeboarding,hobie cats,and of course the beach, pools, whirlpools and a swim up bar. They have "on land" table tennis,day and night tennis,shuffleboards,fitness center,billiards,basketball,board games and beach volleyball. They also have like a TON of restaurants and a nightclub. They do different themed stuff too like a black & white night, casino night, carnivale ect ect. They have stuff you can do too that you have to pay for and I know will do at least one of them if not two. I liked horse back riding and the safari options. Then we will leave the resort at 3:05pm and get home at 8:53pm. I can't wait!!!
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Enjoyed my non running around day yesterday with much running around. Left work 1/2 hour early and went to A.C. Moore and raided them for all thier fall merch for the wedding. I also recieved my invitations and are very happy with them! I will definatly order the other stuff from there as well. I was so scared it was going to rain and my invites would be out in the rain. :( Rented Hide & Seek and bought massage oil. Soooooooooo bad ass. Got a massage, got some cuddling and then went to sleep.
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Gah....today I have nothing to do after work. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. That makes me happy. I've been busy since like saturday. We spent all day running stupid errands, then came home and Chris made his Darkon buckler. Sunday at Darkon was cool. I started working on getting over being afraid of breaking my back and I went out and fought a few times. Karah was there and Tiffany, whom I haven't seen in forever! So I got to sit on the sidelines and chit chat all day :) Chris's friend Matt came with us and I think he had a good time. Lori cancelled on coming over to try on her stuff but i'm going to see her this week. Monday was Chris's mom's birthday. She chose Timber Creek out in east bumfuck to eat, she made it sound like she chose it because we liked it, so Chris called her while he was at work and asked her about going to a restaurant that I don't know what somewhere closer than like 45 mins away. She got some attitude about how she told some of her bar buddies that she'd be there and she didn't want to go anwhere else. So on the freakin 4th of July, Chris reminded her that he didn't get off of work until 6pm since his sister likes to make plans at like 5pm, and his mom said well what about dinner at 8pm, and we said we could do 7:30pm. So Chris calls her at like 6:30pm when he just gets in from work and she is like "Well were leaving now....we told you what time it was." what the hell??? So we bust our asses to get out there and his parents weren't even there yet!!! So they roll up like 10 mins later just to find out his mom never called ahead for reservations and the restaurant was closed for a private party. Soooooo we ended up at Damons. The food was nice and it was ultimatly a good night but it was still annoying to drive 45 mins to go to a restuarant that we could of gone to in Timonium. Yesterday we had D&D after work in which we had to get there early. It was nice, we have a little two week break which will be nice. Just to have some extra time. Thursday hopefully we'll run Chris's game. The 3 games where we had everyone at it was great. Very fun. We've been having issues with people bailing out. Especially Dave and Serg. Thier being obsessive and gay over Darkon, but I think Chris got in touch with them and things will be better. I'm trying to really back him and push him to be patient and not give up on this. I know he enjoys it and I think he's good at it.
On another note, I listened on the radio this morning about the kidnapping of that little girl, Shasta. I didn't know the whole story, apparently this guy was driving past and saw the little girl and her little brother outside playing in thier swim suits. So he drive by and watched them playing outside and he had night vision goggles and looked in through the windows at night to get the lay out of thier house. He went in, and duct taped and bound the mom, mom's boyfriend, and older brother. Then the guy took the little girl Shasta and her little brother Damon and he blugeoned the other family members. He told both children what he did and showed them the hammer he did it with. He killed the little boy before the caught him and got Shasta back. This little girl, now with her dad had her whole family killed and this man did God only knows what to her God only knows how many times. This guy was not only out on bail from child molestation when he did this but he had been in jail before over the same thing!! What the fuck?? Why do we let these repeat offenders on the street??? If we had kept this guy in jail or fuck it, if he had died at the hands of the law, then this tragedy, this life traumatized would of never of had to happen.
Ooh man looks like my wedding invites will be delivered today and it's supposed to rain....now i'll get to sit here and fucking worry all day today :(
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